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December 04 reasons of my own
i havent bloged here in a long time . not that any one reads it any how its snowing and the sun just came up. i have stayed up all night to reset my sleeping pattern. i hate this part of staying up my back hurts from slumping over the computer in an attempt to keep from drifting off. my head hurts from my jaw clenching to tight and not leting go.and i am loosing blood flow to my leggs fron sitting in this chair. i know ... you say do something else!!!! i cleaned ,made hemp crap ,read a few chapters in a book ,tried to watch a movie,beaded a few things ,attached a patch to my bag, and so on .... i still cant find contentment and its only 9:30 am and i have a long way to go . nights i have to do this drive me crazy the time creeps by with no consideratin for my state of mind. MADNESS!!!!!!!! I AM GOING CRAZY!!!!!!! god i have to lay down ... just a little sleep cant hurt.... NO! thats all you need .stupid ..you'll never wake up agian.. oh thank you god my baby is up ... i will give her a bath and do something crazy with her hair.. yeah ! good ! great! ...........fuck.!!!!!!!!! i am still so tiered ! ok blog i am going to go be happy you are just a blog and sleep isnt an issue for you !!!! later!!!! Quote Talking about this sucks !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! March 11 home sweet house partywell my brother and his friends are on there way to visit us up here in northern MN i cant wait to see my sisterinlaw Travis then brandon and some girl its going to be great !!!!!! they havent seen my new house and they are going to stay with me instead of at our mothers , mom is taking care of grandma now and she just doesnt have the space for them now (goody) because i have the space now and its a very beautiful one too .... i just love my new place i will post pics when i finnish a few paintings i need to do to hang on a few walls that are so big and plain. i love the valted celings on the out side it kinda looks like a lill cabin...its nice , maybe not to some but i like it so thats all that matters.... March 05 this sucks !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I absolutly hate this day
 though i am glad i got every thing out of my old apartment.
 I hate the task befor me ...
  boxes and boxes fill my every doorway ...
bags and bags line the livingroom floor ... i cant belive i own so much crap ..
and i remember how much i left behind and it really blows my mind ...
 its strange how when you get your first apartment every one gives you crap they dont want and they say
"this ment a lot to me and i just couldnt sell it but i know that you of all people will take good care of it ."
so how do you say no to that ... lol ... maybe I'm to nice but in the end all the crap that i didnt use was left behind in piles on the floor ..
i feel sorry for that person that has to clean that up ...
 And i feel sorry for me who has to clean up this dump (not really a dump just fulled to the top)i love my new place though and i cant wait for my brother to come stay a night here with his friends and my friend Jens too i just hope i can get this mess organized befor they get here friday ...
 oh well here it goes im off to get this wild mess under controle
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